Dear world,

I am lonely. Where is everyone? What is everyone up to? I call people but hardly get returning calls. I know that folks are busy, i just wish i had more of a life. My doctor says i have ADHD, and i've pretty much have always known that it's true, i just don't feel like dealing with it. The only thing that seems appealing about getting the meds would be that they would probably make me loose weight. Well, ok maybe, maybe maybe, the drugs would help me pay attention more, and calm me down, and make me stop talking so fucking much, and allow me to sleep better, and be able to take tests, and to stop moving around so much and maybe help me from being so god damn loud. now, don't get me wrong, some of those things i sort of like about myself.. in a weird way.. being loud and goofy and impulsive is part of who i am, and i try to embrace that, but i know i go to far. Sometimes i just can't shut up, i literaly can't stop talking. I have these horribly vivid dreams and wake up confused, and i focus on them half the day instead of paying attention in class.. However being so hyper or whatever, i do produce a lot of art, i can pull stuff out from my head quickly, but maybe my work would be better if i could focus a little bit better. blah blah blah here i go... i went to the gym and did a good work out, and i've been pretty proud ever since.. i HAVE to keep this up...... anyway, grey's anatomy is on now and since i have a very pathetic life i must tune in!